as my niece says...
"aunt jenn is bald!!!"
happy valentine's day
today i have a bunch of tests to do at hackensack hospital.
my counts are going up.
my platelets are at a normal range-they haven't been that way in two years.
i'm having some anxiety but am using medication for it.
today i got the sweetest email from rebecca eisen's mom. rebecca was my sister's best friend and my good friend. she had a rare disease that put her on steroids for over 5 years. unfortunately, after tapering off for some time, her disease looked like it was coming back and she was not capable of dealing with it any longer and took her own life. it is hard to understand someone taking their life but rebecca's life was so different than what rebecca wanted her life and it was years! since 19 years old...it is a lot to ask of someone. she took her life on june 14th, 2004. it was only 1 month after i was first recovering from my leukemia and i was so sad by this, and scared. and i selfishly also thought about myself relapsing, if i could do it and ....unfortunately, and fortunately, here i am doing it. and trust me, it's a bitch...but it's life...
here is an email i received from her mom today that i thought was one of the greatest notes for me..it was so beautiful...
Hi Jenn,
I was in Boston this weekend for a meditation training, Shambhala, The
Sacred Path of the Warrior. This was level 3 (there are many), and the focus
is the warrior in the world. I thought of you. In ancient times, the warrior
learned to master the challenges of life, both through gentleness and
courage. Again, I thought of you. Working with my mind, my thoughts, has
helped me through many difficult and painful moments. Your path is a hell
here on earth most of us can only imagine, and still not even come close to
truly understanding. You are truly a warrior. Thinking of you with love,
Judy
On March 14th, I have my transplant-it's rebecca's birthday-how beautiful.
have a good day
love a lot....
i need to go get ready for my day of heart tests...
happy valentine's day
today i have a bunch of tests to do at hackensack hospital.
my counts are going up.
my platelets are at a normal range-they haven't been that way in two years.
i'm having some anxiety but am using medication for it.
today i got the sweetest email from rebecca eisen's mom. rebecca was my sister's best friend and my good friend. she had a rare disease that put her on steroids for over 5 years. unfortunately, after tapering off for some time, her disease looked like it was coming back and she was not capable of dealing with it any longer and took her own life. it is hard to understand someone taking their life but rebecca's life was so different than what rebecca wanted her life and it was years! since 19 years old...it is a lot to ask of someone. she took her life on june 14th, 2004. it was only 1 month after i was first recovering from my leukemia and i was so sad by this, and scared. and i selfishly also thought about myself relapsing, if i could do it and ....unfortunately, and fortunately, here i am doing it. and trust me, it's a bitch...but it's life...
here is an email i received from her mom today that i thought was one of the greatest notes for me..it was so beautiful...
Hi Jenn,
I was in Boston this weekend for a meditation training, Shambhala, The
Sacred Path of the Warrior. This was level 3 (there are many), and the focus
is the warrior in the world. I thought of you. In ancient times, the warrior
learned to master the challenges of life, both through gentleness and
courage. Again, I thought of you. Working with my mind, my thoughts, has
helped me through many difficult and painful moments. Your path is a hell
here on earth most of us can only imagine, and still not even come close to
truly understanding. You are truly a warrior. Thinking of you with love,
Judy
On March 14th, I have my transplant-it's rebecca's birthday-how beautiful.
have a good day
love a lot....
i need to go get ready for my day of heart tests...
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